Monday, July 25, 2005

- Durian Trip -

On 23rd July, we went to JB for our very first Durian Trip... fuyooo... eating thousands of durians ya!!! It was indeed an enjoyable time spent with all our kakis like Kak Zizah, Zurina, Wani, Shikin, Shidah, Mazi, Jun, Thamiz, Syahinah, Sunarti, Radiana and many more lar to mention. Bottom line, it was a fun trip for a very short break.

(pictures will come soon ya!)

Talking about break... well oh well.. been a long long time since I last go for holiday. Thought of joining a fren of mind to Thailand but... one was not able to apply leave so I thought maybe save it for another time when The Triplets can go for a trip down to maybe... KL again? Bali? or even Thailand...

Well, the 3 of us been wanting to go for our next holiday trip again together... Had a great one before this and yesh, I enjoyed that! 3 girls with 1 guy! hahahah The happy memories we had together was just worth remembering... sigh... kengkawan, when will be our next trip together???

Us. The 3 triplets... Suddenly, I think I miss them... been a long time since we last hang out together... I knew them not long ago.. maybe 2 years back. But the bond we had... it's like we knew each other for like years and years back. The 3 Triplets. We are 3 girls of different characters. Very different characters. One is so conservative and simple next-door girl who simply shy of almost everythign and anything. The other is daring, great critics and fun-going-messy girl who can be clumsy at times. And Me? ahhaha... I guessed they know me far much better! I just miss working with them... joking around.. hanging out together...gossiping!! (yup that's our forte!).. and sigh... simply miss these 2... (they know who they are!). Who say I enjoy working office hours??!! Yesh true enuff I off on Sunday. Home at night. Relax on public holiday. But hey, it's tiring! It's boring! It's demoralising! Won't it be better joining you guys in Ops... won't it be better having more kakis at work.. Sigh... I'm not complaining.. just looking back at what I've missed out so far since I stated the office hours job.

We have fun. We haf laughter. We haf jokes. We haf seriousness. We haf conflicts. But perhaps... we see friendship among us... that heals it all!

To that 2 girls out there... hahaha... dunno why, but kinda miss the 2 of you!!!

Next trip???

Sunday, July 17, 2005

- Lovely Them -

Wokay people I'm back... after a super long break ya!!! Well, first and foremost, my sincere congratulations to Rahmat, Kak Ninin and Abang Amin for their recent Wedding! SLAMAT PENGANTIN BARU to all of you people... May you guys lead a happy and blessful marriage life with your love ones. Insya Allah!

Here's their photos ya!!

Lovely isn't it??? The smiles in their faces explain it all... Though I should say the preparations are undescribe-able tiring, frustrating, annoying, confusing, irritating, challeging, and all the ing ing ing... but looking at their looks, I think all of it is worthwhile...

My turn will come. Real soon.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

- What Do You Think? -

hmm.. was sitting down when suddenly some thots came across my mind dat made me ponder...

A friend of mine. She's engaged.. almost 2 years but she confessed to me saying that she felt that her relatonship with her fiance is drifting apart. So I asked her of why she thinks that way???

Below are the reasons she gave me:
- He just dun care about her.
- They spent too little time together.
- Another guy seems to be more concerned about her!!!

JENG JENG JENG!!!! gez.. the third reason stands ya??!! Well, so there's this other party who made her think that the engagement she has now is not going anywhere. So she asked for my advise... DUH!!!??? "What should I say???" my heart whispered...

"Ko masih sayang dia ker tak?"
"Sayang.. tapi dia tak kisah pasal ako. Ako suruh dia fetch ako balik that day, dia suruh ako balik sendiri sebab dia penat. Ako suruh Z fetch ako lar and this guy tinggal kat Woodlands sanggup amik ako."

To my dear friend,
Take this as satu dugaan.. I went thru exactly like what u r going thru now.. I always think what I have at the very moment is never satisfactory. I want something better. But friend, be contented with what u have. Treasure what you have. It's only when u lose it, you will know how much that one person meant to you! But by then, it might make you regret...

BUT BUT BUT on the evil side of me... hey, you're still young man!!! So, chill out!!! Tak salah per practise a bittt of "scandalisation"! ahahahha... you've got to see the world girl! Kumbang bukan nye seekor... kat pasu rumah ako tu... pun banyak kumbang kumbang... cacing pun ader kalau ko nak! Know what you want and do what you want... It's your choice. YOU decide.

And... I haf this another friend of mine... whom I guess is in a dilemma of to be engaged or otherwise?? Lerrrr... nie lagik satu!!! Nak cakap nak!!! Well my dear friend, again I would say, YOU decide. Hey, you've grown up so be more matured! Think rationale! It's your life you know... though one part of me would like to go like "Amik ar dia gal.. tunang jer! He's drop dead gorgeous babe! Amik ar" but I know, easier said than done... It's commitment lar friend.. Are you ready?? You've got to ask yourself!

Whatever you girls decide... I pray that both of you will be happy, Insya Allah!

Come to think of it, life is so full of confusion huh?! I'm confuse too at this very moment... I guessed confusion comes about because we haf a lot of choices??? What do you think ???

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

- Almost There -

Wokay people... I'm back.. yah I know.. It was such a LONG BREAK! hmm feeling better now and packed with so many updates...

First thing first, I'm done with my contractor - Advantage! They've started with the renovation of our house.. been 2 weeks.. the promise was to be ready in 6 weeks times! Only God knows how excited I am right now... This house was designed based on the likings of my fiance and me! of coz' it gotta be our DREAM HOUSE! and I am pretty sure it will turn out nice! We've been going to our house very often than not.. just to make sure things are going smoothly! Can u imagine, my ayang can even drop by our house as early as 8am to see our house and haf his breakfast there??!! Dear.. I know u r excited... but maintain ar.. takkan sampai makan sorang sorang kat rumah kosong?!!

Next, my studies... I did ponteng class for once and hey, I dun feel bad about that coz I really think I deserve that break.. feeling more energise now and not to worry, things are done as promised!

Khursus Rumahtangga... jeng jeng jeng... people, my fiance and I are now certified couple to get married!!! ahhahah... u know what, for Muslims to get married, BY HOOK OR BY CROOK they haf to undergo the pre-marital course.. Kalau tidak, tak dapat surat nikah yang original.. ok ok... back to my Khursus.. of coz' I made many new friends there..some getting married in one month's time and some even getting married on the same day as me!!?? It was fun as everyone there has the common vision - to get married and lead a peaceful and blissful marriage life - Insya Allah. One interesting thing that I learnt there was prayers before you haf sex!!! woohooo... i din know that! But now I know!!! So people, jangan sembarang main jer... doa dulu! ;p

The Khursus is very beneficial and I gained a lot of knowledge from that course. Not only that, I got to know more things about my fiance... 6 years and I am still learning! There is always new things about him each day! He's simply sweet.. I tend to treasure him more since that course. Why so, coz' during the course, we were supposed to express some personal issues that we have never done before... and let our partners know it.. and that was when, I think I've got the best guy ever in this world!!! Thanks Honey...

Below, is one of the sketch that my fiance drew to express his dream future...

Ugly huh?! I think so too.. but the moment I got to know the meanings behind this picture, I was touched! Deeply touched! Ayang told me that this picture represents his future. See the 4 people there??!! That's my family... Us and our 2 kids. Where are we? in our home.. our new home.. our home that is undergoing "surgery" right now.. and the surroundings - are just similar to that of our new home...

He added that, he drew this picture once when he was much younger.. a dream family of his.. but not knowing who was the lucky girl back then... but now, I quote what he said... "That girl kat balcony tu isteri I. And now I tau siapa dia...she is you" and he smiled... Ketabooommmm... my heart leaped up high! Gosh... the feeling is undescribeable... Isn't that sweet??!! I am his DREAM. and I am his REALITY. I am his FUTURE!! Honey, if you were to read this.. I want you to know... that this girl down here appreciated every single thing that u did for me for the past 6 years and ... (the rest I'll say it to you myself...hehehe)

Ok ok... enuff about that, to all my friends who are getting married soon...(there's loads of you huh) all the very best to all of you.. and happy undergoing this phase that may only be experienced once in a lifetime.. Insya Allah... treasure your loved ones and enjoy the happy moments and heartaches... coz I AM! Cheers!

Friday, May 27, 2005

- B.R.E.A.K -

I simply need a break.

B - Bed
R - Rest
E - Enjoyment
A - Adjustment
K - Kindness

People... I am exhausted... I need a break. These few weeks I've been down with so many stuffs..

Hectic Job. All you people know is to complain complain and complain! Dun you haf anythin better to do?! You think by complaining you can get your way thru?! You think you guys can get to see your PRC scandals?! Wakeup OLDMAN.. yesh.. OLDMAN.. you've got family!!! you've got children!!! and worst still.. you're OLD! For God Damn sake... WAKE UP and ditch that bitch!!! Rest assured that she wun be tortured during her stay in my workplace... So just go away and let me work in peace!!! Got Me??!! oh, i forgot... you people only speak chinese... "Ni Men Keyi Cho Kai Ma!!!?? Cho Kai!!!!" Phew... hope I got this right... heez!

Terrible studies! Haiz... it was my choice to study... I wun say i regret... it's just that the time wasn't right... can I haf a break from studies? Can I not go to class today?

Irritating Contractors!! You guys simply take too much of my time... With the designs.. quotations.. money.. budget... ARRGGGHHHHH... yesh I admit I wish for a beautiful apartment.. one of my dream... but I dun haf the luxury of time to go around surveying again and again... and my ayang... can we just stop and choose one of the???

Advantage is good.. reasonable price and hey, good workmanship! Can we engage them dear?? Pleaseeee.... Oh ya, to Ambience... you guys are simply mad! You asked for a budget and u gave us a quotation that's over our budget!! What's the point?! You defeated the purpose of asking! And hey, that guy... yah... that guy who entertained us... you dun make a good sales person! I think I can be a better one.. far much better. Can you imagine.. he haf yet to renovate our house but he told us to be prepared for the flooring to be crooked??!! So I asked him, "There's nothing you can do about it... I mean you contractor should haf known better..." and he answered.. "NO"... duh?! Wun it be easier if you said, "Dun engage us. We are not good!" That would be much much better. Fauzi... you were good but you did not show us your skills as a interior designers... Maybe as an advice, ditch that computer... all other designers that we went to used their hands and DRAW! It more convincing that way... Ivan... you' re good too... you're second in my list! May... We're going for you.. My ayang also seems to be interested in your works... see you soon ya!

IPPT! I'm fat! People.. I put on weight! Yesh I am fat! ahhaha and worst still IPPT is on its way... went running with my colleagues and gosh!!! I'M STRUGGLING!!! ahahah though I din stop running (which is good enuf k!), but i'm not satisfied... oh no.. does that means more runs???

Volunteerism! Went to Jamiyah and I admit I am interested in commiting some volunterism into that home.. the children are simply adorable.cute.bubbly.jovial. I simply like them... I'm thinking of going there again.. with Ayang! He likes kids too... I'm sure we will haf great time there.. TIME? Did i mention TIME? 24hours is just not enough for me... Can I commit myself to them... part of me really want to but another part of me thinks that I will not be able to haf the time to volunteer myself to them.. I wun want to be a volunteer and cause them more damages than good... I wun want the children to think I am there just for a "tour" to see how pitiful they are... I want to be part of them... to share with them.. but can I?

Tiring Preparations! 30 more weeks to go to our BIG Day... How's preparation? Almost done (or rather one third done) but some minor minor ( but important and essential) stuffs that have yet been look into and people been urging me to start fast... Hey, I'm shagged! I'm tired of thinking, choosing, deciding, buying, planning... etc... can I take a break first and get back to this in the next couple of weeks... can?

I promise will start planning real soon but give me a short break..

I just need a bed. rest. enjoyment. adjustment. kindness. Just 3 - 4 days without having to do any of the above. I promise once I'm energise once again... I will re-look into each and every matter that I haf to do. That I promise.

But for now, can I haf a BREAK?


Saturday, May 21, 2005

- When 2 Hearts Become 1 -

When I say I love you
I mean more then words can say.
Even though we are miles apart
I still love you with my heart.
Not a day goes by
you are not on my mind.

I remember your sparkling eyes
and your smiling face.
I just want to reach out
kiss your baby soft lips
hold you tight and feel your gentle touch.

Just your name sends shivers down my spine.
Whenever you need someone I will be there
and when you need your space
I'll give you room to breath.

No matter what I will be understanding
and get you exactly what you need.
When the nights seem cold and long think of me
I'm thinking... just remember all of my love.
Some nights seem so long and I cry myself to sleep.

But I always remind myself
you're coming back... that makes things all right.
I can hardly wait until I'm with you
so I can show you how I feel.

No matter what I'll be right here waiting for you.
Through good times and bad times
we can work things out.
I'm not going to give up on you,
your kind of love is not easy to find.

To you... MY FUTURE...

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

- It Haf To Be HIM -

I was just lazing around when HE suddenly caught my attention... Isn't HE sweet.. with that beautiful smile on HIS face. That lovely pair of eyes and a gorgeous nose of HIS. HE simply melts my heart..

I remembered how we met. HE was not good-looking. HE was not drop-dead dude. HE was not at all attractive to me. But I LOVE HIM... no words can describe my love for HIM. HE's always there when I need a shoulder to cry on. HE's always there to make me laugh. And HE's one of the many who often made me cry. But I still LOVE HIM.

But why others do not like HIM? Was it because HE did not haf the looks? Was it because HE is not that intelligent? Was it because HE could not blend into my family? Was it because HE is so quiet? Why? But thank GOD, my family is slowly trying to accept HIM. They are trying to adore HIM. Thanks all... for understanding that I LOVE HIM... I cannot live without HIM... I want HIM to be part of my FUTURE. I don't want to lose HIM. Thanks for understanding me. Thanks for accepting HIM. I assure all of you that HE will be able to bring joy and laughter into my life. I am very sure about that. Coz I know HE loves me too...

To HIM, I promise I will never leave you... NEVER! Till death do us part... I LOVE YOU Dear...

that's HIM

To Ayang: Thanks for allowing me to bring HIM along in the near FUTURE..