Friday, May 27, 2005

- B.R.E.A.K -

I simply need a break.

B - Bed
R - Rest
E - Enjoyment
A - Adjustment
K - Kindness

People... I am exhausted... I need a break. These few weeks I've been down with so many stuffs..

Hectic Job. All you people know is to complain complain and complain! Dun you haf anythin better to do?! You think by complaining you can get your way thru?! You think you guys can get to see your PRC scandals?! Wakeup OLDMAN.. yesh.. OLDMAN.. you've got family!!! you've got children!!! and worst still.. you're OLD! For God Damn sake... WAKE UP and ditch that bitch!!! Rest assured that she wun be tortured during her stay in my workplace... So just go away and let me work in peace!!! Got Me??!! oh, i forgot... you people only speak chinese... "Ni Men Keyi Cho Kai Ma!!!?? Cho Kai!!!!" Phew... hope I got this right... heez!

Terrible studies! Haiz... it was my choice to study... I wun say i regret... it's just that the time wasn't right... can I haf a break from studies? Can I not go to class today?

Irritating Contractors!! You guys simply take too much of my time... With the designs.. quotations.. money.. budget... ARRGGGHHHHH... yesh I admit I wish for a beautiful apartment.. one of my dream... but I dun haf the luxury of time to go around surveying again and again... and my ayang... can we just stop and choose one of the???

Advantage is good.. reasonable price and hey, good workmanship! Can we engage them dear?? Pleaseeee.... Oh ya, to Ambience... you guys are simply mad! You asked for a budget and u gave us a quotation that's over our budget!! What's the point?! You defeated the purpose of asking! And hey, that guy... yah... that guy who entertained us... you dun make a good sales person! I think I can be a better one.. far much better. Can you imagine.. he haf yet to renovate our house but he told us to be prepared for the flooring to be crooked??!! So I asked him, "There's nothing you can do about it... I mean you contractor should haf known better..." and he answered.. "NO"... duh?! Wun it be easier if you said, "Dun engage us. We are not good!" That would be much much better. Fauzi... you were good but you did not show us your skills as a interior designers... Maybe as an advice, ditch that computer... all other designers that we went to used their hands and DRAW! It more convincing that way... Ivan... you' re good too... you're second in my list! May... We're going for you.. My ayang also seems to be interested in your works... see you soon ya!

IPPT! I'm fat! People.. I put on weight! Yesh I am fat! ahhaha and worst still IPPT is on its way... went running with my colleagues and gosh!!! I'M STRUGGLING!!! ahahah though I din stop running (which is good enuf k!), but i'm not satisfied... oh no.. does that means more runs???

Volunteerism! Went to Jamiyah and I admit I am interested in commiting some volunterism into that home.. the children are simply adorable.cute.bubbly.jovial. I simply like them... I'm thinking of going there again.. with Ayang! He likes kids too... I'm sure we will haf great time there.. TIME? Did i mention TIME? 24hours is just not enough for me... Can I commit myself to them... part of me really want to but another part of me thinks that I will not be able to haf the time to volunteer myself to them.. I wun want to be a volunteer and cause them more damages than good... I wun want the children to think I am there just for a "tour" to see how pitiful they are... I want to be part of them... to share with them.. but can I?

Tiring Preparations! 30 more weeks to go to our BIG Day... How's preparation? Almost done (or rather one third done) but some minor minor ( but important and essential) stuffs that have yet been look into and people been urging me to start fast... Hey, I'm shagged! I'm tired of thinking, choosing, deciding, buying, planning... etc... can I take a break first and get back to this in the next couple of weeks... can?

I promise will start planning real soon but give me a short break..

I just need a bed. rest. enjoyment. adjustment. kindness. Just 3 - 4 days without having to do any of the above. I promise once I'm energise once again... I will re-look into each and every matter that I haf to do. That I promise.

But for now, can I haf a BREAK?


Saturday, May 21, 2005

- When 2 Hearts Become 1 -

When I say I love you
I mean more then words can say.
Even though we are miles apart
I still love you with my heart.
Not a day goes by
you are not on my mind.

I remember your sparkling eyes
and your smiling face.
I just want to reach out
kiss your baby soft lips
hold you tight and feel your gentle touch.

Just your name sends shivers down my spine.
Whenever you need someone I will be there
and when you need your space
I'll give you room to breath.

No matter what I will be understanding
and get you exactly what you need.
When the nights seem cold and long think of me
I'm thinking... just remember all of my love.
Some nights seem so long and I cry myself to sleep.

But I always remind myself
you're coming back... that makes things all right.
I can hardly wait until I'm with you
so I can show you how I feel.

No matter what I'll be right here waiting for you.
Through good times and bad times
we can work things out.
I'm not going to give up on you,
your kind of love is not easy to find.

To you... MY FUTURE...

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

- It Haf To Be HIM -

I was just lazing around when HE suddenly caught my attention... Isn't HE sweet.. with that beautiful smile on HIS face. That lovely pair of eyes and a gorgeous nose of HIS. HE simply melts my heart..

I remembered how we met. HE was not good-looking. HE was not drop-dead dude. HE was not at all attractive to me. But I LOVE HIM... no words can describe my love for HIM. HE's always there when I need a shoulder to cry on. HE's always there to make me laugh. And HE's one of the many who often made me cry. But I still LOVE HIM.

But why others do not like HIM? Was it because HE did not haf the looks? Was it because HE is not that intelligent? Was it because HE could not blend into my family? Was it because HE is so quiet? Why? But thank GOD, my family is slowly trying to accept HIM. They are trying to adore HIM. Thanks all... for understanding that I LOVE HIM... I cannot live without HIM... I want HIM to be part of my FUTURE. I don't want to lose HIM. Thanks for understanding me. Thanks for accepting HIM. I assure all of you that HE will be able to bring joy and laughter into my life. I am very sure about that. Coz I know HE loves me too...

To HIM, I promise I will never leave you... NEVER! Till death do us part... I LOVE YOU Dear...

that's HIM

To Ayang: Thanks for allowing me to bring HIM along in the near FUTURE..

Thursday, May 12, 2005

- 12th May -

12th May... a date that I will always remember... every year!! asal?? asal kak ijah?? my sister asking me right now as I am typing this entry! Kaypo huh!! Anyway... I'll answer your question sis... though this question will not come out in your PSLE examz this year....

12th May... my PAST and my FUTURE.. remember people.. past can never be changed but can be cherished. Future is still within our plans... Insya Allah.

12th May 1982... my bestfriend was born. Knew HER for almost 13 years now... A long treasurable friendship with HER. From Primary 1.6 back then in Tampines Primary School to Secondary 1.F in Dunman Secondary School... SHE's always one of my closest pal... SHE's Azlin, you rawwkkk girl.. Wishing you a very happie birthday and may you haf a blessful year ahead of you...

12th May 1999.. I met HIM. Got to know HIM. Like HIM. Hate HIM. Love HIM.
"Hello... boleh kiter kenal kenal???" - 12/05/1999, 2328hrs.
Lame isn't it. But I was taken by that... Never did I came across a guy who would be so 'daring' and straightforward in getting to know a lady. On that faithful day, I got to know that HE existed. And hey, HE din haf an easy time... I played the "hard-to-get" and it took HIM one solid year to win my heart. HE's patient. HE's sincere. On 12th May 2000, HE was introduced to my family... HE was my PAST. And HE is my FUTURE. HE's... Mohd Imran bin Ismail... love HIM lots!!!

12th May... a day I can never afford to ignore or forget...

- A Warm Welcome -

Finally, i haf my own blogs!!! Been wanting to haf one since the day I saw Junainah's cool blogs... well, why the interest?? I wanna jot down every single moments of mine.. that's worth remembering. The past can never be changed but they can be cherished... Cheers! Anyway, the photo above was attributed by one of my bestest friend whom just went on a total silence.. Just wanna let you know, I am still keeping the potrait that you drew for me...